a late entry...

(to read those chinese words, change encoding to unicode)
非常恐怖的一天。。。

我相信今天对有些人来说是很重要的一天。。。 it's the day that affects ur future and how people "label" u...

personally, i hate this day very much... though i am not the one getting result this year... but still i understand how all my juniors feel...

always find it so unfair tt one major examination can actually decide where u shld belong... wad u shld b doing in the future and whether u are a successful person or not... u dun even noe the reason for the success or failure... all u get is a piece of paper with "A/B/C/D/E/O/F"!!! tt's all... 我真得很讨厌这种一局定生死的“游戏”！！！

i cried just now... u all must b thinking sharon is siao... my parents got a shock... i was shocked too... until today... i still remember how worried and scared i was then...

meet perfect 5 for k box the nite before... then ton at my hse... i simply didnt sleep well tt nite... keep thinking tt wad if i fail my exam... then tt's the end le... ...

early in the morning still got tution... i dun even have the mood to teach...

meet melissa and liting at bugis... went temple to pray before going back to sch...

when i reached sch... i started crying when i heard my teacher saying tt some of my classmates didnt do well... i started crying bcos he happened to be looking at me... and i tot he was refering to me... he was shocked by my reaction and he started clarifying tt he is not refering to me etc...

my mind is totally blank... all the way until i get my result... though i never fail any subjects... didnt get any "E" grade or whatsoever... i was totally disappointed... especially with my geography...

i started crying like dunno wad... 全世界是灰色的。。。 as if it's the end of the world... i dun even bother if anyone was looking at me or not... i just started crying and crying... i cant even stand properly... and poor liting and sing siew have to comfort me though they are also quite disappointed with their result...

spend the whole afternoon singing and crying at k box... choose all those super sad songs and started singing and crying... i think tt's the day where my singing is the worst ba...

then meet cindy, kenny and royston for dinner... dun feel like eating at all... they tried very hard to comfort me but i just cant stop crying...

and still have to work the next day... how i wished i can hide at home and never step out of the hse... as long as i am alone... i started crying... i think it last me abt 2-3 weeks ba... though i appear to be okie in front of my frens, neighbours and relatives...

but wad i wanna say is that though i didnt get the grades tt i wanna get for my A Level... 我还是好好的活着。。。at first i keep thinking if i shld realli come SIM... cos i believe there will always b a group of people laughing and gossiping how badly i have done in my A Level tt cause me to "end up" in SIM...

To those people: 不要以为成功会永远跟随着你。。。(sounds evil... but hu ask them to look down on me in the first place...)

and i realli have a hard time thinking if i shld go NTU taking something tt is so ulu and i dun realli like or to go SIM and take something tt interest me...

at first i keep telling myself tt no matter wad course i get... i MUST go local uni... if not other people will look down on me etc etc... 幸好有很多人在身边鼓励我。。。 让我改变那种幼稚的想法。。。谢谢你们在我最伤心，最无助的时候陪伴着我。。。 =）

though i cannot say tt my decision is right but wad i can say is that at least until now i never regret making this decision...

sorry for all the recap... shld have blog this last year... but realli dun have the mood and courage to do it...

to all my beloved juniors hu did well: congrats and hope tt u get into the course u wan... =)
to those hu didnt do as well: it's not the end of the world... dun b dishearten... life is not just about academic results... dont give up ya =)

2 more days to mock exam... encouragement and luck is all i need... (dying soon)