my mind is confused...

seemed to have lotsa things to say but i simply dunno how to put them into words...

after reading siyun's blog entry... i feel like crying... feel so affected and reminds me of some things that i dun wished to talk about at all...

sometimes i realli think i shld stop watching those romantic and sweet korean shows... cos in reality it does not happen... even if it does... how long will it last? nobody knows...

though i noe i sound a bit too bei guan... but ya... that's wad i wan to believe in for the time being...

suddenly reminds me of a very old song... jeff chang 张信哲 - 多想

我觉得人的心不只一面
任何事都不是绝对
曾因失去他感到痛苦心伤
无爱一身隐约约淡淡的酸
偶尔会想他此刻过的怎样
但这只是随便想想
眼前还有好多事让自己忙
常常忘了身在何方
扑面风一阵气氛不一样
发现季节已经更换
午夜梦回时莫名的彷徨
暗自怀念幸福模样
多想再为某人忙碌和分享
又怕空忙一场
情歌满街淹没人心房
我却没有一个倾吐对象
多想再为某人欢喜和忧伤
却怕旧创又患
爱情这东西拥有了好麻烦
少了又拼命想